My whole purpose on joining the gym was to lose weight. However, I’ve slowly come to hate my gym because the people are pretty obnoxious, it’s too crowded, stinky and the equipment sucks. The other thing is that I’ve slowly lost my motivation to go anymore. I feel that going to the gym is futile for me and that no matter what I do, I can never lose the weight I want. Liposuction would be a better solution if I did not hate doctors.
Either way, I think as long as I live in LA working and/or working as a developer, going to the gym is a complete waste of time and money. Most of the reason to hit the gym was to get into better shape and improve my self esteem. However, I just don’t feel that my self esteem can improve these days. Also, I don’t really care anymore to be in shape. I don’t have any desire to get into a diet.
Further along these lines, my purpose was to lose weight to look good. However, in thinking about my situation, I realize that if a girl does not care about my personality in the first place, then going to the gym is pointless.
I’m getting older and want to have more time just for myself. Without the same level of energy that I had several years ago and the fact that almost everyone I like(d) got hitched in some way, I’m pretty certain that I’m wasting my time. I prefer spending my time on me and trying to make myself happy. Not trying to fulfill an image of happiness defined by others. Not trying to make other people happy. I’ve done little in this regard so I think I’m going to start.